No decision

I know many of you, myself included, have been anxiously anticipating a decision from Duncan as to whether or not he he wants to be adopted.  As I have mentioned multiple times in this blog, this is a difficult and gut wrenching decision for him and one that will affect the rest of his life.  I know he has been thinking about it, wrestling with it, and I am sure it weighs heavy on his mind.

Our visit with him today was relaxed and fun.  We talked about a variety of subjects as we continue to get to know each other better, building trust through familiarity.  He has told the interpreter several times that he likes us and his willingness to share more shows it.  But something is holding him back from taking that final step and making the commitment.  We had hoped it would come today, but he said he wasn't ready and asked if we could come back. What could we say? 

So, we are headed back tomorrow for another 2 hour visit with another interpreter.  Perhaps a slight shift in the routine will yield a different result.  I can't even begin to list all the emotions and feelings that are  running through my mind.  When we left the orphanage today I was upset, not with him but with a system and a situation that forces one so young to make such a decision.  My heart aches for him and his struggle.  We so desperately want him to say "yes" but it is not our decision. 

It is a challenge but we are holding firm to the One that brought us here in the first place.  Only He knows what will happen and why, we just have to trust, which at times is easier said than done.  Continue to pray for Duncan but we also humbly ask that you lift us up as well as we journey along side him.